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Dreams & Moon-light Monkey!!!

2006-05-01T05:20:00.000-07:00

Life becomes so much packed with worries that are influenced by family,work, society. Regardless of whether I'm working in night shift or dayshift, I used to sleep only for 4 to 6 hrs. I would be very happy, if thisgoes without any dreams. But, fortunately or unfortunately, I get manymysterious & weird dreams whenever I sleep.I mention it as a weird one because most of the times these dreams are

Haunting heart & Melting Mind

2006-05-01T05:19:00.000-07:00

Heya frenz, Back again after a small break!!!I had already foreseen that this time the Tamil new-year was on Friday andso prepared myself to enjoy the long-weekend with my friends on the town Ifinished my engineering. We made all sort of plans and quite number of myclass-mates accepted to meet. I went there one day earlier so as to givemyself time to my other friends... No wonder, I

MP meet-up : Pride, a prejudice??

2006-04-03T23:53:00.000-07:00

Had Einstein not created 'The Theory of Relativity', sure I would havecreated it!!!! Coz, none would have felt it so intensively like me!!!! Everytime when I attend a MP meet-up, I completely forget bout the rest of theworld and the time. I was reading my new 'Harry potter and order of phoenix', my phonejangled and I got up immediately thinking that it would be either aniruddhor Felix. (On the

On the Ashes of Love!!!!

2006-03-29T02:52:00.000-08:00

Heya frenz, When I first went to the new town from Chennai, the first thing thatattracted me there was, those mighty mountain ranges that surrounded thecity. Especially one that seemed to be very nearer to my home. I always,liked to be do trekking but I feared to go all alone as no one was ready toaccompany me. Moreover, my father always warned that I should not go nearthose mountain ranges.

Endless Journey!!!

2006-03-29T02:49:00.000-08:00

Heya Frenz, Everyday in this life starts with new hopes and wishes. Everydaypasses away like blitzkrieg; before we stop and enjoy the day, it goes awayas unused junk. What it leaves us is the strong scent of nostalgia andsometimes indelible marks on our memories. Last Sunday, i was sleeping in my home. It was around 10.30 am.Buzzing sound of our calling bell woke me up from my deep

Leaving Clues....

2006-03-24T02:34:00.000-08:00

Heya frenz, Goood to c lot of coming out posts...For me, the confession to my best pal was so instantaneous; never imagined myself telling this to him...perhaps situation made me this favour.. But i feel this as my rehearsal to express the best of me to my mom... I need to make her understand me.... I literally dont bother bout others accepting my orientation; Atleast, if she could

They'll understand me

2006-03-24T02:32:00.000-08:00

Heya frenz, Just few days ahead for our meeting... Would like to share a chat I had with my friend(my best pal, straight friend).It was Sunday afternoon, as our lunch was heavy meat stuff I felt I should take rest in his room for a while and get back to my home...I was playing 'Age of empires' in his brand new laptop. Suddenly I heard his voice with utmost annoyance...'Bull shit,

MP meet - A time 2 b da self....

2006-03-24T02:29:00.000-08:00

heya frenz, Hope this mail finds you in best of your health. .. Well, if u think the people are gathering and meeting up eachother for fun and sex then you shall better back off.. We have hell lot of ways to get such funs(thro chat...). If it's not the cause then wat? Thing that drives most of us to the meeting is to see people like us...and to share the envy of oneness that binds

Rainy Evening... .AF Film Festival...

2006-03-24T02:25:00.000-08:00

Heya all, One of the useful and most enjoyed moments in my recent days was spent at AF film festival. At first it looked like only few turned up when we started playing first film, but at the end it was all over, i was amazed to see a big crowd leavin the hall. Among all, one that I liked most is co-incidentally first film by order, 'Dangerous living' by John

Oscar at Office!!!!

2006-03-24T02:19:00.000-08:00

Heya guys, Though I'm out to my family as GAY, in my office I'm still astraight-womanizer for my colleagues!!! (Coz most of the beautiful Iyer galsusually teem around my desk and hang out with me)To encourage guys to concentrate on general-knowledge and communicationskills, we have discussion meetings happening once in a while in our bigconference hall. Mostly, all the members of our

Weird Feelings & Harry Potter

2006-03-24T02:18:00.000-08:00

Heya guys, I'm a big fan of harry potter series. Especially, i've watchedthe first part, 'Sorcerer stone' for more than 50 times!!!! Everytime when i'm free, i watch either LOR or harry potter. My mom usedto wonder bout this. Whenever she asked bout this, i've just kept mymum coz i really cannot explain her that why i like that. Two thingsfascinated me in the first movie. It's the friendship

My Papa was still smiling!!!!

2006-03-24T02:16:00.000-08:00

Heya guys, Yesterday, it was 11.45 pm. As i didn't sleep previous day nightand also because of the hectic training work on whole day, i was tootired and my eyes were begging for sleep. I should not sleep;atleast, not till 12'o clock. some how, I should stay awake. I triedwatching my favourite movie, 'Lord of the rings - Return of theKings'. Still, in moment my eyes tend to close, my mind tend

Favourite Fever!!!!

2006-03-24T02:14:00.000-08:00

Fever had ever been such an annoying and tiresome one in my life... Notonly to me, but many never likes to be a forlorn figure with negated noses,sometimes with oozing noses, dwelling on the bed with desolate dreams allalong those nauseous nights, with high temperature which comes along with apain that flows from head to toes. I ever hated to lie down alone(?), looking desperately at the

Another day in office!!!

2006-03-24T02:12:00.000-08:00

Heya frenz,I've posted bout my talk about BBM in my office!!!Yesterday, when i finished all my works it was 4 am. I stretched my handsand eased myself on my seat. Two of my colleagues came to desk and one said,'Hey I've read some of the reviews bout BBM, most reviews say its good.Should be good movie daa'. I blinked then sighed and said, ' Yes dude, eveni too read one review in news paper... Wat

MY BLUE-EYED BOY

2006-03-24T02:11:00.000-08:00

Heya Guys, Yet another piece from the same guy (From the same guy who wrote 'Rahuland I'), who don't want his name to be disclosed, which I enjoyed themost!!! Now it's for all our eyes!!!!MY BLUE-EYED BOY"Cecilia, You're breaking my heart.. You're shakin my confidence...", asmall crowd of about five were singing and entertaining themselves on thebeach. An orange sun colored the evening sky

MP Coffee-to-dinner Meetup!!!!!

2006-03-24T02:10:00.000-08:00

Blimey, wat a lot of guys!!!!!Apart from sending mail to the group...I personally used to send sms twicebefore every meet-up (one on the day we decide venue and other on the verysame day of hang out, as a remainder) to some 20+ known MP guys. But alwaysused to feel bad that only, quite, few turns up!!! (Perhaps, sms from awrong, charmless guy piss them off - thinking to quit that job)

Sexuality, Ungal choice

2006-03-24T02:08:00.000-08:00

If sexuality is completely my choice, I would rather go for creating aclandestine program that randomly selects any one of the possible sexualityin nature, such that even I cant know what it gonna select!!!! I stronglybelieve and love the thrill of living than thinking much bout it!!! ;)Coz, I dunno how good it would be if I'm a str8. So can't desire somethingwhich I've not understood. So let it

RE: Hai all, Please read my mail and answer my doubts

2006-03-24T02:05:00.001-08:00

How did I decide that I'm a Gay??? It almost took some 5 yrs for me to conclude that I'm a G. I personallyhad many chances to fall for gals emotionally & sexually. I wasn't able toassociate my feelings with gals. I always like guys around me, fantasizedthem... Any way, I didn't decide it so easily. I had to undergo a probationperiod and of course self-evaluations and introspection would help u

Fun with my family

2006-03-24T02:05:00.000-08:00

Heya frenz, It does gonna be almost a month after I came out! I wouldlike to share some of my experiences with my mom and brother during thesedays!!! When I came out both of them felt bad that I didn't tell them wellin advance, when I was in confusion!!!My mother was kinda buggin me everyday with all sorta questions... lol..She started reading and watching every news bout

Re: Sun-Evening - Revisited

2006-03-24T02:00:00.000-08:00

Nice work Ganesh!! Thanks for reviewing the meet-up... I was unusually latefor the meet-up so didnt try posting some bull shits on that!!!Regards, FTP

Sun-Evening - Revisited

2006-03-24T01:58:00.000-08:00

Hello all, It was a wonderful meet up on Sunday evening.Sandeep did us the favor of booking a nice table is a shady(!) corner,and it wasmellow warm weather when I reached.The adorable sweetheart of the group,Aniruddhsitting in silent contemplation was a nice welcome. Vikram,Benny, Dhruva soon joined us, followed by Ramki (Did I compliment youfor that lovely 'kurta-overcoat' ?).I express MP's

Sat-Meeting

2006-03-24T01:56:00.000-08:00

Heya guys, Regarding this meet-ups, we have to really sort out our priorities!!Posting the plans for our meet-ups in MP itself is not working well... Iguess no one new turned up for any of recent meet-ups from MP.. Only non-MPguys were brought by members of MP... So, what is the use of posting suchevents, when nobody wants to turn up??? As pres said, it was only same facesevery time!!!! For

Virginity??

2006-03-24T01:53:00.000-08:00

Virginity ???? At my age 10, 'Maa how do we born?' 'God gives us to our parents' I lost of my dumbness... At my age 14, 'Hey, how do we born?' 'Man kiss women so we born' I lost my naivety.. At my age 15, 'Mam, how do we born?' 'Sperm fuses with ovum' I lost my doubt!!! At my age 16, 'Dei, how sperm fuses with ovum' 'penis ejects it to vagina' I lost my innocence!!! At the

Re: Yet another memory!!!!

2006-03-24T01:51:00.000-08:00

Hey frenz, Thanks for your wishes... Thats true that i'm blessed with a mom who understands or willing to understand her son's weird psychology... Still, wat we prepare to speak and convince parents also matters... Its better to list out and customize convincing reason, according to their parents mentality, well before... We'll never know when we would end up in a situation or oppurtunity for

Yet another memory!!!!

2006-03-24T01:47:00.000-08:00

Well frenz, As i work in night shifts, i hardly spoke to my brother in few weeks. Day before yesterday, it happend like my brother took off for some personal reason. So after very long time, all the four - my mom, sister, brother and me - had casual talk on the day.. Whenever we were together we always ended up with some discussions... Usually it is my mom or I would start a discussion

i wish i was doing that in that video

2006-03-24T01:42:00.000-08:00

Heya guys,I guess these wrestling should be part of most of our Indian kids... Ialways been a victim in that... It starts like this, whenever we three (me,my str8 frnd and ex-bf) met-up in my friend's home, two of us will join andused pull the legs of other, by cracking jokes on his behaviors... So otherwould pretend as if he was angry and try to stop us by trying to grab mycrouch and sometimes

The MP Meeting

2006-03-24T01:40:00.000-08:00

Heya guys, I remember my first meeting at the same venue 14 months back...I was new to chennai and i only knew pres there... Eventhough some tried to comfort me, it wasn't a pleasant experience for me... I didnt attend any meetings after that, till last november... Now it's again same place and same kinda people... Believe me, i was at my best..in everything, was so flirtacious...i

General notes on meeting people

2006-03-24T01:38:00.000-08:00

Ravi wrote :Do you mean to say that there can be instances / chances of me being neglected or ignored in mp meetings by few folks and i should be ready to face it as well? Answering your questions needs few explanations. In our recent meeting a friend of mine joined us. It was the first time he attended any meetings of such sort. He seemed to be interested in private meeting with me than

Sailing Memories...

2006-03-24T01:37:00.000-08:00

Heya Frenz,After very long time i met my close friend --working in ISRO, last saturday. Infact, that was the first time we were meeting up after my coming out to him. He came to chennai just to meet me. we didn’t meet up quite regularly after our college days. Even, my coming out day was not so pleasant. I went to ashok nagar and we met up at his cousin's house. We formally enquired each other’s

Memories.....

2006-03-24T01:32:00.000-08:00

Well, After finishing my chores at office, i strolled back to my home buried in some thoughts bout performance tuning my code. I have to go across a railway crossing through a subway to go to my home from office. When going through the subway, i saw a tall guy crossing me...He should be somewhere in his 40s. He was actually looking at me and after crossing him, i turned to see him face to face

Let us hope for the best -- New Year & MP meeting

2006-03-24T01:31:00.000-08:00

Heya frenz, Well, how many times I’d wonder, how every meeting seems to be the best of all I’ve attended? Is it just an illusion? My doubt is not whether meetings were good or bad; no doubt, every meeting was amiable, but doubt is whether they were as good as I feel or it's just my curiosity that works on my imagination to exaggerate them? Well, I’ll better leave this to other guys.

december

2006-03-24T01:22:00.000-08:00

Heya frenz, December is, indeed, a special month for us.... It is the coming out season, it is the music season, it is the season for frequent and regular meeting... Well I gonna mention the same, yet another meeting of smart and great minds... It was a dance performance by Anirudh, we planned to attend, yesterday.. When i called up anirudh, the previous day, he told

coffee meet!!!

2006-03-22T22:51:00.000-08:00

Well, It's a great to be a part of the meeting at 'Coffee' shop, adyar. It was already drizzling when i started from home; redolent enough to remind me of the fabulous evening i've spent on the first day of recent AF film festival. I hired an auto and managed to reach the place after 25 mins of travel(Usually it doesn't take more than 10 mins, damn the traffic and dam the rain).